I broke your heart, ‘I just need space to get better’ -that’s what I said, my depression was getting worse.
You told me you understood, you loved me. You said it would be us until the end of time.
I can’t stop crying, I thought I broke your heart but I broke mine instead.
I was sitting in a cafe with my best friend. I burst into tears instantly as I looked at my phone, a text from you. You have a new girl.
Today you turned 20. To cope with the pain of not being a part of your special day I got a tattoo. I sat for over four hours, the only pain I could feel was in my chest, I miss you.
I drove through your street today. All my muscles locked up and three blocks down, I had to pull over and remind my lungs how to function.
Today would have been our anniversary.
I think I’m going to kill myself.
I woke up.
I sat my driving test today, he lead me past your house. That’s where I made a ‘critical error’. I needed to get away so I sped, I felt my throat tighten. I still passed though, you’d have been proud.
Most likely not.
someone asks you
and you laugh
instead of feeling
a double edged
dager on your chest."